( now that she flinches at. slight, but there. the smile doesn't really go away even if her heart isn't entirely in it. )

It matters exactly because of that, actually. It might matter less if I didn't. Long memories; better to hold grudges with.

( she sounds like she might be kidding? but she is not. )

More importantly, it does help tell me who to spend more time with.

( it's a limited resource, even if she'd rather not think about that overlong. )