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dilf quixote ([personal profile] icanfixer) wrote in [community profile] citynet2024-01-15 10:37 pm

@DONQUIXOT3, video (free for all, really)

[ let those wounds heal and come clean--to everyone, angela had told her.

well. the wounds won't heal for some time, as many as there are, but she fears they never will 'til she does the latter. but it's hard, it's difficult, and there are many more who have not even thought about it... such a possibility is ever in the back of one's mind, of disappearing as althea had done, as gregor and roland and gebura, as the young ken amada and so many more--

but no one really stops to think about it until it happens. their population has dwindled, month by month, without a word.



the background is colorful and a myriad of various crafts, not her own room at home (home, what a funny concept it is to call such here, and yet--) but at the host club of which she works. don quixote is not here to advertise her space nor is she here to show off some new craft, and everything from the oversized sweater she wears to the attempt at a bright smile despite the darkness under her eyes speaks to those even who may have met her once that something isn't quite right today. she's always a cheerful, upbeat girl to any she meets, any she passes or knows,

just not today. ]


Ahem! Kehm. Good day to thee all, new faces and old. I am Don Quixote, holder of several positions and jobs both here and in the world I hail from; it is alright if we have yet to meet, but prithee do not retire just yet! I have something I wish to speak to thee about... something that is quite important, and shall perhaps change the way thy time here is spent.

[ ... huuuuf. okay. ]

Some months ago, perhaps four hence, I found myself upon the train as if I had died -- and I can assure thee, as one who has died purposefully before, it was the same but different. With my return, I found I had gained many new memories and experiences... as if I had gone back to my world and lived it, from the very moment I had left. Those who were here still appeared and acted as they ought there, without a word about this city, this world, and... in truth--

I did not recall this city whatsoever when I was gone from it and remembered my time only once I had returned.

[ shot out, without a pause save the stumble before, and don holds the gaze of her device a moment before exhaling. ]

To those whom I lied to, I am sorry. It was not my intention to hurt thee, nor to give false hope unduly, but I did not want any to think their time here meaningless simply because one does not remember it. I am certain there must be a way that we may-- we may keep them, or to leave our mark upon the world in hopes of jogging our memories should we find ourselves in the same circumstance, just as others have left theirs with pictures, with scratches in tables and walls, and-- and so on! But... I do not know, so I only wished to be honest and frank. For it is only once we are armed with knowledge that may we be able to solve a problem, or so I am told.

[ ... and she wanted to come clean, too. for herself. it's a lot easier like this than doing it one on one, she finds, not having to worry about the other's reaction so soon, though she shrinks a little all the same. ]

I am not the only one who has experienced this coming and going, that I know for certain, but I understand if it may sound unbelievable, or that one may wish to deny it. Do what comforts thee best, but know that what I say is true -- and allow this space to be one in which we may exchange ideas to ensure that these memories of ours last beyond our time spent here.

[ and,

as tempting as it is just to close off completely and throw herself back into her work without further replies, she'll still very much be around. for better or worse. ]
justscribing: (❖ 103)

[personal profile] justscribing 2024-01-21 07:52 am (UTC)(link)
One's Darshan doesn't mean anything for their understanding. There are plenty of people in Haravatat who understand far less.

[... But that's not really important here.]

What do you think about breaking ourselves out of this place?
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[personal profile] fussiest 2024-01-21 05:10 pm (UTC)(link)
[ netzach most likely does not either, kaveh thinks. it's netzach, the gentlest of them all, who knows to speak his thoughts, and knows the cruelty that comes with holding back. but this, kaveh doesn't say, because this is something that don will need to sort out with netzach, though kaveh makes a mental note to speak with netzach on the topic. the topic of returning home has weighed on netzach for some time now. now, undoubtedly, it will weigh more.

still, kaveh considers this. once a liar, always a liar.
]

To say once a liar always a liar is to ignore the human capacity for growth and change. Though simply saying it is far easier than doing it. But even moreso important, I think, is the capacity for rebuilding trust. [ kaveh's head tips at the way don pillows her chin on her arms. she has chosen a brightly-coloured sweater today. he remembers thew ounds. ] ... have you ever lost someone's trust before, Don?
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[personal profile] nomoresharks 2024-01-21 06:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Well....

[The word is drawn out with the briefest flash of a grimace.]

Usually such block in memory occur by taking a large amount of aether and using it to obscure the aether that makes up one's memory--similar to spilling ink upon a letter. Normally the block is removed by removing the obscuring aether, typically via a reversal of the magicks that put it in place to begin with.

Or, if theory is to be believed, by one's death and the return of that individual to the Underworld, where the natural process of breaking down the aether that composes one's memory would disperse the blockage as well.
justscribing: (❖ 96)

[personal profile] justscribing 2024-01-21 07:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Good. It'd be unfortunate if you simply accepted things as they are.
nomoresharks: (Formulating a plan)

[personal profile] nomoresharks 2024-01-21 10:09 pm (UTC)(link)
Indeed. Somehow I doubt the idea of losing countless other memories in favor of keeping a few would go over very well.

I wonder where we would even begin to search for such a device.
nomoresharks: (And then Azem did a flip)

[personal profile] nomoresharks 2024-01-21 10:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Aye, that seems most likely. With everything they appear to be capable of, it wouldn't do to put such technology within reach, not just for their safety but for our own.

That said, I wouldn't discount the possibility of there being some sort of alternative path within the parts of the city we have access to. They would need to have some form of easy access here to move us about whenever certain "laws" are broken, wouldn't they?
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[personal profile] featheradrift 2024-01-22 01:08 am (UTC)(link)
[ Ah, there's the pep he remembers Don having. Subdued, but there. She'll be fine, he thinks. Hope is hard to cling onto, but it's also one of the most important emotions mortals have. With hope, they can persevere through a lot more than one would think they could handle. He's seen it many times before in his centuries of wandering. ]

Exactly. Even if it's far-fetched right now, if it exists, then our chances of obtaining it aren't zero. If the worst result is death or losing our memories, then you better fight as hard as you can for that miniscule chance you could turn it all around. Giving up is only a guarantee you'll never remember anyone here once it's all said and done.

[ He's... really here giving Don a pep talk, huh. This is some real goody-two shoe bullshit the Traveler would do, he thinks. So much for not being one of them. He averts his eyes and his expression changes subtly to one of slight embarrassment. He's really not used to saying these kinds of things, okay!! ]
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[personal profile] justscribing 2024-01-22 01:12 am (UTC)(link)
That's also good. It'll be harder for you to help anyone if you're exhausted or injured.

[That's not the point the worrywarts mean to make but it's the one Alhaitham is making in the face of that maze.]
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[personal profile] fanstheflames 2024-01-22 05:05 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I noticed that... always near the end of the month. And they kinda switch off between being weird and being terrible.

[ And what will they do next? She can only brace herself.

Still, she sounds sympathetic. ]


I get it, though. I'm not that patient myself!
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[personal profile] abit_ofboth 2024-01-22 07:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Very sad, and yet I am glad you have said something. Now I know it is something I need to help figure out. It is bad enough that everyone has been drawn here against their wishes. To find those you truly care for and lose them, whether remembered or not, is not a world I wish to return to.

[Not to mention that he’s dead in his own world so returning is hardly a viable option for him anyway.]

I will think of something if it is the last thing I do.
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[personal profile] immortalpoet 2024-01-25 05:12 am (UTC)(link)
Optimist.

[It almost sounds accusatory.]

How do you survive in the City as you are? You know us Fixers can't live on hope like that.
justscribing: (❖ 130)

[personal profile] justscribing 2024-01-26 05:12 am (UTC)(link)
[Surely Alhaitham can't break every trial in Don's trauma maze.

Anyway at least one self-sacrificing blond in this city can listen, and learn.]


Given how easily our captors can manipulate this place, we shouldn't assume they won't make death permanent at some point.

Still, what you heard was sound advice. No matter how strong you believe in your ideals, you won't be able to help every person you come across. And if your solutions are too quick to sacrifice yourself, you'll help even less.
featheradrift: (hat down 2)

[personal profile] featheradrift 2024-01-26 06:59 am (UTC)(link)
[ Don Sombrero............ He's not over it yet. Not yet.

Anyway, he averts his eyes and tilts his hat over his face when Don calls him kind. What is with people and calling him kind? He is not. He... can't be kind. That's just not who he is.
]

It just annoyed me to hear you be so defeatist over the network, that's all. We won't be able to make progress if people give up. I was just trying to shut you up before you spread your gloom.

[ His words are rude, but in honesty Don has read him correctly. He was genuinely trying to help her. ]

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