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[cinaedus]

I would like to pose a question for everyone. Consider it curiosity, or a thought exercise.

What is your understanding of God? Or experience with, if you prefer to answer that.

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[cinaedus]

Ah, but what if this is an ice-breaker? 😉

[deathoftheauthor]

It drew my attention, whatever your reason.

I was once a devout Catholic. I often miss that sense of certainty. I had faith that there was an order to the universe, even if that order was beyond my comprehension. The world and all of the beings that inhabit it were created with care and intent. Wickedness would be punished, and virtue rewarded in kind. These beliefs were a great source of comfort to me, although I did not realize it at the time.

[cinaedus]

I was raised Catholic, myself.

[ In fact, a lot of what this person says sounds quite familiar. Unnervingly so, actually. ]

May I ask what changed that belief?

[deathoftheauthor]

Then perhaps you can understand my struggle better than most.

It was not one dramatic event, but rather time and a series of unanswered questions. Philosophically, I found myself preoccupied with the nature of good and evil, and I could not reconcile certain contradictions within the framework of my faith. A rather cliché story, in the broadest strokes.

[cinaedus]

[ Better than most in more ways than Louis might expect, really. ]

Yes, time and a series of unanswered questions sounds quite familiar. Cliché perhaps only in the sense that it is a not uncommon experience.

[deathoftheauthor]

I am interested in your experience, if you are willing to answer your own question. It's quite a thing to ask a group of strangers, though the present circumstances do give cause to doubt our preconceptions.

[cinaedus]

My concept of God versus my experience with Him are two very different beasts. And here you called me forward... At least take a man out to dinner first, hm?

[deathoftheauthor]

Is that a figure of speech, or an invitation? I have recently found myself with a great deal of time on my hands, and the subject is of particular interest to me.

[cinaedus]

{ooc: pls forgive the forever-late tag! RL has been murder.}

Hm, normally a figure of speech, but in this case... both.

[deathoftheauthor]

( ooc: no problem at all, I've been out of commission myself! happy to backtag ✨ )

In that case, the choice of venue is yours. However, I am something of a night owl, and you will probably find me at my most agreeable in the later hours of the evening.

[cinaedus]

{ooc: aww yis ♥ }

Fancy that, I'm a night owl myself. City Hall has a lovely seating area in the lobby. Shall we say, tomorrow at midnight?

[deathoftheauthor]

Marvelous. I shall look forward to our conversation.