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video; un: mr. chandler
[ Not long after getting to the Welcome Diner and gathering his thoughts, he flips on the device to begin what will surely be one of the hardest things he's ever had to do. He hasn't bothered to clean himself up much but, with Daniel's help, he probably doesn't look like a serial killer anymore. Still, it's obvious the man has been through hell. ]
My name is Ethan Chandler. I-- [ He swallows, then begins again. ]
Last night, something wicked prowled through the streets and attacked several residents. It was me. I don't look as I did last evening and, despite what I said, I can't recall who I encountered or what events took place. I change, you see, when the moon is full. I can't control myself; God knows I've tried.
[ He lets out a sharp exhale, grimacing when it aggravates some of his injuries, but powers through. ]
Ever since my arrival, I've done what I could to make sure I couldn't hurt anyone, taken precautionary measures to restrain myself so this wouldn't happen. But it did. Something happened last night, and I made a mistake that put people here in harm's way. The blame rests entirely upon my shoulders and mine alone.
I'm not deserving of your forgiveness, but I'll ask for it. If you encountered the wolf last evening, please, reach out to me here. The phones are impersonal and I would prefer to extend my apology in person, to look you in the eye when I give it.
[ Now, to another pressing matter: ]
Mr. Gray and Miss Ives were present before and after what happened. I can't contact either one of them. I've tried.
My name is Ethan Chandler. I-- [ He swallows, then begins again. ]
Last night, something wicked prowled through the streets and attacked several residents. It was me. I don't look as I did last evening and, despite what I said, I can't recall who I encountered or what events took place. I change, you see, when the moon is full. I can't control myself; God knows I've tried.
[ He lets out a sharp exhale, grimacing when it aggravates some of his injuries, but powers through. ]
Ever since my arrival, I've done what I could to make sure I couldn't hurt anyone, taken precautionary measures to restrain myself so this wouldn't happen. But it did. Something happened last night, and I made a mistake that put people here in harm's way. The blame rests entirely upon my shoulders and mine alone.
I'm not deserving of your forgiveness, but I'll ask for it. If you encountered the wolf last evening, please, reach out to me here. The phones are impersonal and I would prefer to extend my apology in person, to look you in the eye when I give it.
[ Now, to another pressing matter: ]
Mr. Gray and Miss Ives were present before and after what happened. I can't contact either one of them. I've tried.
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Unfortunately, your answer leaves much to be desired. [Daan does find the man's situation unenviable, and he can imagine how difficult it must be, but it is frustrating as well.] I have a liquid sedative I have arranged for another patient with a similar problem. Is this something you have tried, or would be willing to try?
...I see. So the memory is hazy for you, it sounds like.
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I never asked to become what I am and the one who changed me wasn't especially forthcoming. Whatever I've learned I've found out myself or through someone who was able to witness my transformation while I was restrained back in London. [ Ethan hesitates for a moment before giving the screen a quick, somber smile. ] I just said I was willing to let someone kill me if it comes to it, I wouldn't be against trying another option first. If it works, I don't care what the method is.
[ He's so damn tired of hurting people. ]
[ A nod. ] I don't often remember what happens, I liken it to blacking out. From the time the moon reaches its peak until morning, it's like the man I am disappears and my curse takes over. It was easier to avoid people once I knew what I was but there aren't many places to hide here. I thought..
This is my third month in this hell. After Halloween, I thought it would be safer to keep myself as far away from everyone as I could. If this place can influence me as I am, then it can influence the wolf as well. Two months without issue made me overly confident, turns out I never had control to begin with.
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...Mm, all understandable assumptions. I can't say I entirely blame you for not being forthcoming about it. We all have our demons, sometimes more literal than others. We cannot take back what was, only attempt to prepare for the future.
Though I suppose it means it's time to keep track of the moon cycle on my calendar properly. Shame that.
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They're inescapable. I've accepted what I am, but it doesn't ever ease the guilt or the memories. [ Alcohol does work wonders, however brief the reprieve might be. ]
If it's a burden, I can contact you the night before.
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In any case, simply tell me where I can have the tonic delivered and I'll have it done. And don't worry about the moon cycle tracking, my irritation with that has nothing to do with you, oddly enough as that might sound.
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Here, thank you. [ Thankfully someone taught the man from the 1890s how to do something interesting; he drops a pin for him, the location of his apartment in district one. ] Unless something happens here to change it, tracking it shouldn't be a problem. I know it well.
Mr. Hob Gadling was one of the people I attacked last night.
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For now, I'll bring you a bottle. It should last you awhile since you only have one night to be worried about, so there is that at least.
...Thank you. I'll address him shortly.
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I'm in your debt. Forgive me for making your job difficult here. [ Really, it's the kindest way he can think of to say: Sorry for wolfing out and eating people on your watch. ]
Thank you, Doctor. I've seen the aftermath before, I know they're going to need help.
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Do what you can to prevent this in the future and we'll consider it even. The less people I have to mend to, well then consider me a satisfied doctor. [quietly screams on the inside]
Hopefully no one is so foolish as to try to fix themselves. If nothing else, I hope my classes are coming into play here...
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Hate to tell you this, but I know quite a few people who would. Classes? [ As one of those said people who would doctor himself up, his interest is piqued. ]
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Oh, I completely believe you. [Daan sighs.] I'm running first aid classes during the weekend, to try to prepare everyone as much as possible in case they're stubborn and don't want to come to my clinic.
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[ Do you see this face, Doctor? ]
Would you be willing to take on another stubborn student?
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